Monday, July 28, 2014

Chapter 4: Emptiness


OK. So here's chapter four. I really think you guys will like it. I'm not going to say much this time except for PLEASE COMMENT. Alright i'm done. ENJOY.

“Anyways, if you'll follow me, I’ll take you to your midwife to be just in case you change your mind. she’s really nice, and she loves you’re music, she’s like a mega fan! But don’t tell her I told you she'd kill me! Her name is Olivia, Olivia Newbold.” She said with a grin. TT and I followed behind her.

“Aww That’s nice to hear.” I said pretending to be interested. I just wanna see my baby.

The nurse knocked on the door, Nurse Newbold or Olivia whatever her name is came to the door and greeted me.

"HIIIIIIII HB!!!!!!! I know this is supposed to be 100% business but I really can't help it i'm just so happy to see you and...." I'm guessing T was just as annoyed as I was cause she cut her rambling off

"Hi i'm her friend-"

"TT!! I already know! here take a seat right there"

"and nic you can sit right there on the table" She weighed me and took my blood pressure.

"Alright Ms. Maraj" she winked tapping back into the business woman.

"I'll be right back with the monitor. And we'll check in on this baby!" She left the room and the tension in the room was so thick I couldn't cut it with mooriah's thighs. Just when I was about to speak up Olivia came back in the room and her demeanor changed.

"Well it seems that you're having an abortion so you won't need me after today." She looked at the ground and still moved around the room setting things up.

"So the way we do things here is we let you see the baby in the monitor and then once that's over with we'll start the procedure." She couldn't look me in the eyes at all and I didn't even have to look up a T to see that she hated me right now.

"Okay so lift up your shirt and unbutton and unzip the top of your pants please" I did what she said.

"Now I'm going to squeeze some of this gel on you so it might be cold....just a warning."

My heart is pounding now. Seeing this baby and then having to kill it is going to hurt physically and emotionally. She asked me some questions. And assured me that right now we're just about to look at the sonogram And listen for the heartbeat.

"Alright you ready?" "Yea" I said sheepishly.

“ if you look at the screen you should be able to see the baby.”

"Wait!!!" I told the nurse then switching my focus on my friend.

"T can you come hold my hand please?" Reluctantly she got up and walked over to the table and just when she was about to hold my hand her phone rung. She looked down at the Name and headed to the door.

"T can't this call wait damn it!" She looked back at me and walked out not saying a word. You know what fuck her.

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*outside the room*

"Hello?" She whispered in a low voice so Nicki wouldn't hear her

"Yea T where y'all at I'm here"

"Safaree i'on know if you should come In right now"

"T I really don't have the time for you trying to spare Nicki right now. This is our first child and I want to see it for the first time just like nic gets to. So why the hell you tryna tell me other wise?"

"SB you know I love you and I would do anything for you but it's just...." T heard Nicki cursing out the nurse.

"Safaree imma call you back I promise just stay In the car till I say come out."

"WHAT? Why? T what's going on with my baby?"

"JUST Trust me." She said with clenched teeth

"I have to go! Bye!" TT but open the door to a angry Nicki.

"What happened?"

"Nothing! its just really cold on my stomach."

"Oh thank God you scared me there" Nicki ignored her and continued watching the nurse.
She rolled the dongle around her stomach a few times and there was no noise. Then the nurse spoke.

“Oh, that’s odd.” She said and looked confused.

"What! What’s wrong? Is something there wrong?!” Nicki asked obviously worried.

“Nope, I’m sure it’s nothing just look at the screen.” I turned my head and looked at the screen. Nothing. Blank. Empty stomach.The nurse shook her head. She looked confused.

"Olivia what's going on why are you making that face? If there's something wrong you need to tell me RIGHT NOW!" Nicki said getting defensive.

"Ms. Maraj, I assure you it's nothing let me just get the assistant nurse she's worked here way longer than me she'll know how to read this okay? I'll be right back." And with that the nurse left the room with quickness.

Nicki was in now in full panic mode and hopped off the table and began fixing her clothes.

"Nika what are you doing?" TT said

"I'm getting the fuck out of here. What kind of doctors office doesn't know how to read a monitor."

"Nic I'm sure everything's gonna be fine you're just over reacting. That's all" Nicki did not want to hear those choice of words right now.

"Over reacting? TT there could be something wrong with my child and SHE'S NOT TELLING ME! I'M THE ONE OVER REACTING HUH? NO." Nicki headed to the door but it opened before she could touch the knob. And there stood an older short woman with chocolate skins.

"Hi I'm misses Robinson how are you?" She held her hand out to nicki but it wasn't accepted.

"Alright, not a happy camper but that's fine, now can you take a seat at the table an resume your previous position."

"No I will not, Mrs. "Robinson" Nicki said putting air quotes around Robinson.

"Matter of a fact, I'm not putting up with this nonsense anymore, I'm leaving." The woman put her hand up giving a signal to stop. She blankly stared at Nicki the spoke.

"Look here little lady I know you're very famous and everything and that's beautiful but that still doesn't hide the 'I'm scared shitless and I'm in deep shit' look behind those pretty little eyes of yours. So I suggest you take a seat back on that table, shut your mouth and let me do the talking. Ok?" The nurse put on a fake smile. And TT laughed from the other corner of the room.

"Welp, she just told yo ass" Nicki glared at TT and sat back on the table. Mrs. Robinson checked over her charts.

"Ms. Maraj....sounds familiar. Have you ever been here before?"

"No." Nic Answered with clenched teeth.

"You sure? Because the way your attitude is set up I think I do remember you. But your records say this is your first time her so I'll stop bugging you."

Nicki was really hating the way this lady kept shutting her Down.

"Alright Here comes the gel and let's take a look."

"Oooo!" Nicki got tense again.

"What? Someone Please tell me what the hell is going on!" She was getting worried.

"See what I was saying!" Olivia spoke

"Yea.......yea I do....." Mrs. Robinson replied.

"IF SOMEONE DOESN'T TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON I'M GOING TO LOSE IT!"

"Clam down Onika....I'll tell you ok?" Said Mrs. Robinson. Nicki relaxed her shoulders a little bit

“Now, I’m sorry Miss Maraj, but you don’t seem to be pregnant. And there is no evidence of you miscarrying either.” Nicki was confused.

"So what are you telling me?"

"We're telling You that there wad never a baby." Nicki looked at TT then back at the nurses.

"B...B.....But I to...took the pregnancy test at home A...an...and it said positive!"

"It was a false pregnancy test" Olivia said.

"It happens all the time don't worry."

I felt my eyes swell and my cheeks beginning to get soaked with tears. I looked at TT as I frantically searched for answers.

“NO! This can’t be!! you’re WRONG! I know she’s in there! I know the baby is, I can FEEL her! I know I’m pregnant! I know I am! TT tell her!" TT Looked at me with pity.

"TT! PLEASE!” She shouted. Truth be told TT was just as shocked as nic. She didn't know how to react.

“Come’on Nic, lets go.” She said to her. That's when She really broke down. And started fighting T to get off of her.

"NO! THEY'RE WRONG!!!! T THEY'RE WRONG!!! WHY DON'T YOU BELIEVE ME T?" Nicki looked at her friend as if she'd been betrayed. TT ignored her and continued to help her get dressed.

"I'M YOUR BEST FRIEND? WHY DON'T YOU BELIEVE ME? I CAN FEEL HER..." Nicki was now bawling and her tears we're soaking up her shirt.

"I FEEL HER INSIDE ME.... I feel my baby girl.....I know I do" Nicki said in a whisper.

TT walked her out, and saw SB's car. He was about to hop out the car when he saw how distraught Nicki was but T shooed him away and mouthed "Follow me". And T escorted her to the car and took her back to the house.




OKAYYYYYY hope you liked it. 


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